The old argument came up about my impracticality. Others have difficulty following me. Yet I was seeing to home maintenance over the years with no help, 20 white shirts a week ironed, suits pressed, meals on time, lawns manicured, and best of all, children reared and raised in love. And office work for those many years. How impractical?
Our teacher son said that had he seen the growth in his students that he saw in his grandmother after she arrived to be in my care, he would never have left the classroom. I see as I always have so why must I explain connections to make a problem understood? Mine is not an engineering mind and am not credentialed. How do these people get degrees who don’t see the commonplace? The teachers asked me to explain my day of choice. The following I lifted from a journal entry of October, 2010.
(Wonderful day raking the leaves. I felt as if I were a violin and the heavens were playing me. The heavens were the bow that played on my heart and I sung with a high vibration through almost two or more hours. It was wonderful.
This day was a gift. This is how I connected in our yard with the All that was in me and in everything. I was the god and the god was everything about me. In my arms and the swing of the rake and the beauty of the day and the breath I took with my body.
I was the song and the instrument on which the All played. I was the melody and I was the song. And the day was the symphony behind me. It was how it was for me when I was twelve and we moved to The Farm. I connected with my earth and my earth was me and I was the god and the god was everything.)
The Teachers responded with . . . only another like you would relate. The connection you have with your earth and you said, in love with it, is what we wanted for everyone. How would you go about teaching this connection? Or explain it to your beloveds? You tell about virtue in labor and beauty in the doing, and they resent you. Not everyone sees the connections. To them physical labor is grunt work. But you sing with it and though your body pains, you praise the day. Who understands this kind of thinking today?
People text while they walk, while they motor and while they make love. What world could we give to you to teach virtue in labor, beauty in the doing? Come, Veronica, there is a bridge or perhaps a world to sell to you?
Listen To Me, dear Earth. . .
This space where my sounds
break out into form and
I see, I see, and I knew it
all the time.
So listen to me, dear Earth,
and sea and sky,
for I speak your language and
hear your sound and hear your music.
And it is all for me, for me.
The tension in my body
is the lyre upon which your music
My mind is my opening to worlds
that I know exist and can feel
through the thoughts winging
sometimes painfully against my ears.
Listen to me they say, and hear, hear.
(poem written in August, 1982)
photo by John Holmes