I don’t as a rule write of personal feelings, though for those who read my work, they would argue that my feelings are evident. I wish to comment on a favorite blogger whose site is Full Moon Fiber Art.com. She is Maria Wulf and she posted Loving Rocky. It is a big decision she and her husband are working on. The only thing I can say is that the road is steep and the way is narrow.
There was a decision of a major one we made when it was time to put down our companion dog, Prince. He was our companion in every way. The cancer came quickly and after a hospital visit with a vet who was an expert in this particular disease, his diagnosis was clear and concise. He said there would only be pain left in Prince’s life. The day was set for his deliverance from his condition. We would put him down.
When the day came I thought I cannot do it again. My husband was going out the door and I stood by the south window and could not bring myself to go. We were still dealing with emotions from recent events. I turned around to look at Prince and as clearly as if the words were spoken out loud they were heard inside my head. ‘You are not going to make me do this alone, are you?’ His eyes were pinned on me and they were clear and he was ready. I found myself saying out loud, ‘of course not.’ I followed him out.
Did he say those words or was it only my thinking that he did? If it were possible for this dog to speak, these were his words without a doubt. I was his person and he spent his life with me. How could I not be with him for this last act of devotion? There are those of us who at times are given words or thoughts when something is demanded either of us or those we love. And there are people who will always say that we read too much into things. These are people who do not hear the cry in crisis nor their unspoken words. Perhaps those of us who live lives with feelings on our sleeves and our heads wide open are the ones that heaven finds easiest to get to do what needs be done. If this is so, we say, almost to a fault, consider it done.
When you are hurting, it is no comfort at all. But we can do no other.