There are times, and this is one of them, that is a heartbreaker. I have long loved this Earth of mine and readers know even as a child I have felt this love. When weather devastates the very places I have known, it is a keen pain.
Last week it was Houston and that was difficult to view. This weekend it was Florida and up until November I was a resident in the state. The evergreen forest that backed up our property was a delight for me. And always in my mind and heart will be the rest I found when my eyes sought their profound beauty. To think now that forest must be in shambles hurts greatly. The devastation that has come with this hurricane to the people and homes I have difficulty accommodating. Facing the problems that come with flooding and the work involved has me hoping there are young bodies with boundless love and energy beside the homeowners.
Having been in a wicked storm with a basement flooding and boxes still unpacked and damaged, the only solution was to discard them. Though years have passed I still have thoughts that begin, I wonder what happened to??? And I used to have??? And then I had a copy of the book??? And of course what else was in those boxes, at this time I have no idea. But as a grandson said to me at the time, it’s only stuff, grandma, only stuff. He is right of course and I remember to this day that it is only stuff. Because when a family comes through a time of devastation and everyone is accounted for, that is what is important. When arms hug bodies and leave their imprint on your heart it is gratitude that we feel having come through together. Most stuff can slowly be replaced. Beloveds, never and we know that.
But my generation of elderlies came through some times that the youngers have no way relating to because many generations separate us. I remember saying to my mother when something was discussed and I said to her, but it only costs a dime! And she from a time I could not relate to because I knew love and a full stomach, said, but when you don’t have a dime, it is a lot of money. So many things lost that are memorable because planning and yearning at a time of no money in lives when those items or collections had a meaning. Gone are those symbols and icons of a life lived. Meaningless in themselves but representing a something. Stuff yes but a time remembered.
Grateful always that beloveds came through. The work begins now to rebuild with hope eternal.
(click on the photo to fill your screen. That was my forest.)