When I was a homeowner it was said I took it all personally and it was impossible to live like that. To me the world cannot be lived in fully unless it is taken personally. It is the only way to process information for any meaning to be applied. It must be personal. It must be meant for you. If it is not personal, you are a passer through. These are my thoughts on this, my world.
Everything in this world is mine. From the thought in my head to my surroundings. To my actions, to the weather in the course of days, to my thoughts in the length of my nights. I am on stage in a morality play, in a thoughtful participation of all life.
I do everything in conjunction with everything else. I do it because I must, to the best of my ability. The things are visible, to someone in a somewhere. To my neighbors who are nowhere in sight. To the ethers who view and label my actions, to the best of my ability because I can do nothing else. And what I do will have far reaching effects.
I think what I think because I think it. My earliest thought was ‘think it through’ and I did. Embarrassing, uncomfortable all the time, but rewarding in retrospect. In carrying a thought to conclusion another aspect opened. And so led me to more thought.
And I learned that all life is thought. Everything is a thought form and every thought creates a something. With the question arising, what is it we wish to create? We are a lesson in process.
Arrogant? I think not. Because if everyone knew this, we would be working our buns off outdoing each other in caring for our Earth. Work would be the mode of action.
I saw a pin on a young woman in a store that said, Ask me to do as little as possible! Inspire confidence? Shows me she cares or is proud of her work? Shows me she approaches life in a caring way? She will leave the world a better place? Funny pin? To some, perhaps.
Because I take things personally, and because it is my world, made for me, I have to do what I can. I wish to leave it with one more person caring.
Just for those who cross my threshold to feel better about themselves. And given food for thought and to see their eyes light up on the yard and see that love cares for it by who the gardener is.
All birds sing for me. All life grows for me. All thoughts are directed at me and I with love embrace all of it. Because I feel this way, I will work and my eyes will appreciate the greatness of the gift given. And know the ache in my bones and fatigue is indeed a small price for this caretaker.
You realize of myself I can do nothing. To ask to be an instrument of peace means that one will be asked to work. It is my world and it is personal. I have not been a passer through. Everything is a lesson and everyone teaches. I did not know how else to do it.
My world, my commitments, my priorities. Maybe arrogant to think so, but it has been a responsible attitude, done with joy. If nothing else because then there was no one else to do it. Now that circumstances alter cases, because I see, it is still mine to do as long as I am able.