Home of One’s Soul
The Teachers Speak. . . Every so often, out of one’s domain, there is an isolation that swamps one. It is difficult to shake, and yet there it is, evidence that this is not home. There is a portion or many portions appealing to one, yet basically, the at home feeling begins to leave. This is when one digs in and brings to light all those things that brighten the soul. Dig into your handiwork, give yourself some leeway but stay with the program, stay with the route. You will find that the isolation will fade somewhat and again you will regain your sense of belonging. But do not distress yourself about it. It is a pure longing for the home of one’s soul. It will come about in its own good time and the journey will have been worth the while. And what is gained along the way will add simply more weight to the gems in your pockets.
(Again for me this is an example of all time is simultaneous. The above journal entry is from November of ’94 and the poem following was written on the eve of my birthday, this week, so it was really yesterday that the teachers spoke to me, all time being simultaneous. Yet linear time is crucial to allow growth to take place.)
You will again yearn
for a patch of green earth
to lie down on,
to smell the pine forest alive
in its secrets. Or hidden beneath
the crisp cover of fresh snow.
They will not have left your memory.
Somewhere also within memory,
is a place yearning for you.
It is deep in time that is
as remote as a country village.
And yet there too, you will find refreshment.
You will find eyes that light and
follow you when you enter their doors.
There will be those whose lives
you have searched for remnants
of who you are.
You will find them waiting silently,
for your voice to beckon them
from where you have been hiding
for almost a century;
bent on finding the reason to live.
So come now, when you hear
your name called and let us know
you are willing to be with those
whose love for you is weighed
in centuries. Nowhere near the place
you now hold as being close to heaven
and yet, yet, close enough that you
will lose your hold on the place
destined to be another memory.
You will take love for god’s sake
and hold it high as a solemn token
of the herald’s torch, reminding all
that the way is always safe
until the games are over.
One response to “Within Memory”
e mail from Jane. . .what refreshment for my soul.. . .that there will be moments of peace and yet the final journey is to come when we are truly home for good!