Somethings Learned While Scrubbing. . (with no help and no money we called it work, and did not know it was multi tasking. . )
I scribed. . .January 16, 1994. . . .
When capacities are stretched continually, compassion fatigue is a condition when all avenues are locked into emotions. It is no surprise to us to find we burn out and just do not care much. The words out of us then when confronted are so what else is new? And we shrug off what we should care about and we know that is not right.
The need then is to go into some quiet place and rethink our position. Time to hold conference within ourselves and then to share ourselves with a trusted one. As long as there are commitments who of need depend on us, we cannot fail to perform to the best of our ability. Tired as we are, regret is not the companion we want for the rest of our days. I tell you true.
To the age old question, who is going to care? Your voice may be the only one in the wilderness that is heard. Your ‘I do!’ may be the one history carries forever. Let it be so.
And furthermore. . . wonder also why we labor under the illusion that heaven has the answers and knows what is best. And too often it gets us off the hook of accountability and we let all hang loose. We then don’t have to make a thoughtful decision about anything because we say we have left it in God’s hands.
And then we wonder how the ones with hate and anger unite others to destroy our cherished lives. They unite in their anger and rush to destroy with vengeance what powers them.
I understand remedial classes are now added when we leave our world to enhance the teaching of what could not be grasped here. And for the reluctant ones not equal to accountability, our present names are attached to half-hearted attempts at reconciliation.
In truth our present lives far exceed the simplicity of the Sages on Olympus. Their memories are cloudy and there is no relation to the complexity of lives today with the storms of conflicts and treacherous devastation of our institutions.
I have learned that time spent in thought, in conference with the GodWithin which animates us, is looked upon as prayer. When motivations are researched and the arguments are valid, we become teachers as well as students. And heaven takes note of us and responds.
When our thoughts and actions are one and pulled simultaneously through our hearts, we teach what we feed our minds. And the power to act and accomplish because we use our minds to think all things through is a sacred gift.
It is one we use to build and not dismantle. It is used with words such as honor, trust, love and bond.
I scribed July 27, 1990 . . .you wrote that heaven matched your thoughts. It could be also that you matched the heavens. You think on it. . . (for William, a professor of holy writ. . . who commented on the poem I wrote feeling humbled when heaven matched my thoughts and he could relate, perhaps you matched heaven’s thoughts? Why did we all believe that heaven had all the answers? And who told us?)
art by Claudia Hallissey