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  • The Roses Are For You. . .for keeps. . .

    Long before the world ever was. . . .

    As co-creator and creature both of the universe, it is man’s prerogative and innate yearning to stand erect.  To bow down all the time leaves one eventually on one’s stomach.  Man rose from the crawling position.  There are too many yet who find the child’s position too comfortable.

    To stand erect means that certain responsibilities must be accepted.  And that includes responsibility for one’s person and attitudes.  There are worlds yet where man will find the child’s position more comfortable and comforting.

    To be adult means that one has to survive the inner turmoil and the outward condemnation which the world applies.

    You do not defame the heavens.  The heavens are not all that peaceful and without its own turmoil.  There are many cliques yet which aim to destroy what man in his finest moments tried to accomplish.

    We continue to say at every life’s departure that we go to a better place.  Unless our life’s pattern has been to work toward that better place, we may find ourselves again learning the lessons we failed to learn but in lesser circumstances.

    Like primer on bare wood, being and doing good must be innate.  The Source of our impulses must be the Greater Heart.

    The Roses Are For You. . .

    I tell you true.  You were known
    before you came here to this vast land.
    A waste for some, a paradise for others. . .
    for one a dim place, for another the sun shines.

    You took upon your spirit a work, a job,
    looking to make a difference.
    You said to send you where your heart
    could change the world. . .

    You were given your wish, hard as it seems.
    You have not failed.  Your ripples are felt
    on unnamed shores and even the unborn
    know your thoughts well. . . .

    Come, be kind to one the heavens
    sing praises for.  Your work is virtuous
    and your talents creative.  We make bet on
    the one winning the trifecta.

    The roses are yours.  For keeps.

     

    (it was scribed and it was a Given.  I share the message. We are known.)  

     

     

    February 10, 2022
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
  • Often the Larger Picture is Universal Life Enhanced. . . . .

    What I have learned in these past times is that there are some things that cannot be improved upon.  Whether a recipe that has been perfected or something written that has stood the test of my time, meaning my physical life.  This is one of them.  And my measure has been my life of almost 91 years.  As I often ask my beleaguered son, how close to a hundred do I have to get?  And he answers you are not there yet.  So, I reprint this with gratitude to my teachers, the muses and whoever holds the sparklers.  With love and a deep AAhh  MMenn.

     

    Jon Meacham, historian, told the story of when President Reagan was in the hospital after being shot, he was wiping up some water in the bathroom when a surprised visiting President Bush asked him what he was doing.  I spilled water and I didn’t want the nurse to get blamed for it he said. 

    These are the small things about us that we leave as our legacy.  Not the big things that we sometimes are noted for.  Not always the Salk vaccine that Jonas Salk saved the world from polio but the Conscious Evolution he taught I came across in the interview when he wanted to save humanity from themselves.

    We are beyond the times of physical survival as such evidenced by growing numbers.  Now we must emphasize the human values we do not have time for that are taken by devices with addicting instant gratification.  Or even casual relations we indulge in that make us not proud.

    Where conscious action determines the potential in human behavior across the planet because we cared enough to do something right and good that enhanced life for just one person.   Because of its inherent goodness, it became a lifesaving principle for all humanity. 

    And the small, light touch I wrote about that I appreciate as you put your hand on the small of my back to help me up the curb.  It is a small curb to viewers but to me a mountain to climb.   You know the why of the kiss on your forehead as you depart telling me that you are not feverish. 

    As I see you both hug your loves with a quick crush to let them know the strength of your arms in that loving moment.  The small things that will be your legacy also. 

    That will be the difference we make, we all make in lives we touch even perfunctorily.  Seemingly innocuous, seemingly without feeling.  But it makes in enormity, the teaching lesson confirming to us that we are of worth, that we are good.  (it is my song, vrh)

    In Looking Back

    Sometimes in looking back
    to grasp meaning. . . .
    the uneventful brims with it.

    The small deeds by the young
    take on logistics of magnitude.

    The small bouquet often picked
    from the neighbor’s garden
    is innocently given with largess of heart.

    It is no small thing
    when the child says I will do it. . . .
    and unburdens the caregiver.

    It is in the uneventful
    that the heart grows in understanding,
    when the lesson becomes the food on the plate.

    Not good to look back?
    How else to learn what life has taught
    and perhaps we learn what not to repeat?

    It bodes well to forgive when harshness
    makes brittle the connections,
    but in the smallest detail,
    in the dailyness of the commonplace, we grow.

    And the soul leaps forward and universal life is greatly enhanced.

     

    photo by the late Diane Rybacki
    but forever a sister. . . .

    February 6, 2022
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
  • On Earth. . . 1954-1985

     

     

     

     When David Died . . . . 

    I say that David took the hands off my clocks.
     It was the greatest gift he could give me.
    I tire of running my life with a large hand and a small hand.
    No time for this, hurry for that.  Do this now, do that before.
    I hate it.  With a passion.

    I want to immerse myself in time and swim in it.
    Feel it around me yielding and yet holding me up.
    I want to feel the eternity of it and
    I want to see my house and yard
    at different times under the sun. 
    To be able to say that in the morning
    this is precisely how they look.
    I want the information stored in my Memory Bank
    for those times when I feel bereft.

    I want to see the moon rise and give way to the sun. 
    I want to see the rainbow
    around the moon and say again,
    we are in for a big snow.
    I need to revel in the mundane task
    of shaking out the kitchen rugs
    on the back porch and feel the cold boards
    beneath my slippers and the cold air
    stealing beneath my clothes.
    I want to keep looking at the moon with a glance,
    because no farmer stares at the moon too long
    and say hello David.

    And when I feel very homesick, I will again
    as I have in the past, take my coffee
    out on the porch and sit beneath the midnight sky 
    with the stars daring me to look up
    and identify them and again

     revel in this multifaceted existence called Life.

     

    How  fortunate I have been in this magnificent time in being a parent, a mother.  David was one of three brothers, my best teachers.  To have had them sitting at our table for those years we could claim them made us rich.  We were blessed to have David in our lives for 31 years.  It would have been a tragedy to us not to have had him.  And for those who knew him . . . there is not a day that he is not thought of. 

    He is blessed assurance that life is everlasting.   That . . . we know.                 

    February 1, 2022
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
  • You Stayed The Course. . . .

     

     

    You Stayed The Course

    Only you saw what you saw.
    Yet you stayed the course
    and plowed the field
    and now the plow is lifted.
    We will work.
    The children will have their toys and
    the world will have the words and
    in due time you come home
    and we frolic.

     


    ‘Til the morning lingers onto day

    and the night never ends;
    ’til the stars forget to shine
    and the moon hides its light
    from the ne’er do wells who take
    so much for granted.

    We, love, will drink that libation
    that holds the variegated colors
    and will chortle from this world
    onto the next.

    There will be love and laughter;
    there will be joy and there will be rest
    this world has not been able to grant.

    We will have brought peace
    to the memories and
    no longer will they haunt you.
    The ancestors will rest
    and man will look forward                                                                                         
    to what he can accomplish.
    The world will blossom;
    all worlds and all times.

    The path in the jungle has been cut.                                                                   

     

    Jan 14,’89   journal
    August 29,’14

    art by Claudia Hallissey

    January 26, 2022
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
  • Fun With An Idea. . . .

    I remember walking from the garage to the house and  wondering if my mate would see the work  I did in the yard that had taken me till dark to do.  And I was thinking of the Christmas tree I had once put up, sawing off the trunk to fit the holder,  stringing blue lights and also the decorating everything had required.  All this and even the latter was thought walking the path to the house.  The blue lights of the tree in the new room window were vivid in the dark.

    And the thought occurred walking that it was in error that I thought I did these things.  And the error was in thinking that they were done to gain the praise and gratitude of the one I had in mind.  It was not the Other whose praise I wished.  It was none other than my Self I did my best and worked to please.

    The scenes I wanted to duplicate were the ones I had in memory.  From where or what world I did not know.  But from a somewhere and sometime that burned into my brain their beauty and with the love for me that somehow came as an apriori, a before that kept me warm.

    When I saw this photo from Emma E’s grandfather, who said that the great granddaughter decides whole scenes with great grandma’s tapestries,  adding a house, birdhouse, raffia  and sea shells with very real symbols, I know what is withdrawn from that memory bank.

    Important to me is the care given to creating what is done from mind’s bedding.  Lately I am keenly aware of the casual dismissal of what is made and what little thought is given.  And it seems any effort is called creative no matter how thrown together something is. 

    It offends me greatly because if it is worth doing, there should be pride in workmanship when done.  Time and physical effort called sweat should accompany what one presents as one’s work with name attached.  Some things are done as exercise of an idea and should be our fun.  Creative presentments should have standards that are measurable. 

    Our schoolrooms once taught these standards.  Realizing that many felt outside what was accepted and were singed by the standards should  open one for further study and practice to make better. 

    And learn that we are not the only way station but our further journey will yet show us sparklers.

    January 22, 2022
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
  • a mountain top experience. . . .

    I had intended to send an email to a friend and instead with this quirk of a mind which is mine, it took to be an essay.  When finished I thought better than to send it.  The reason being another trip to the hospital last weekend in dire straits.

    An early cardiologist appointment on Friday morning the 7 th, had him saying you need hospital care and the feeling was imminent.  So a weekend in the care of my Mentor’s Caregivers had them releasing me to my family on Sunday, January 9 th.

    And time to give some thought to what I need to write.  The finding (stumbled) and reading of an early journal entry, (almost to the day plus 50 years) had this to say about the road being traveled.  I edit only for space.

    January 17, 1973
    Wednesday

    Been busy at work all day.  Read for a while last night and was interested in the excerpt of Paul Tillich when he talked of the Cosmic Consciousness experience as a State of Grace.  It is interesting how much I understand what was not clear a decade earlier.   Does time do it or growth?

    Tillich states that Grace cannot be wished for (how can you wish for something outside your experience?)  Yet when it comes you know that something outside your experience has happened;  not by various names but a something, happened. 

    Mine came with the knowledge that I was one with the universe and the words, ‘He Lives!’
    Whether that meant Christ because of my upbringing, or because a friend died and was alive without a doubt.  His wife was impressed to call me on the day he made his transition and the only thing I could say to her was that he lives,  over and over.

    This was the 3 day period when I felt as if the top of my head had been taken off and I indeed felt one with the universe.  This must be what it is like when you die to this world.  The physical boundaries are no longer and you become part of the surrounding. 

    I seemed to flow into the Ethers.  I felt part and parcel of it, a oneness unbelievable.  It was exhilarating while it lasted.  I did not know of new intellectual stirrings, except no doubt about the foreverness of life on a gut level.  And the words over and over ‘He Lives!’

    Tillich said that all that is necessary in this experience is that you know you are accepted.  It also comes out of grief and despair.  To this day I don’t know why I was so devasted by this friend’s illness and death.  Except I remember our first meeting of recognition from a someplace and sometime.

    How deep can grief go?  It flows through the very core of you and out to join the suffering of ‘All That Is’ . . .

    And  the core of you is ‘All That Is’  . . . .

    (I have been encouraged to enter the early journals into my blog.  One already through conversation, that few know even scattered religious history.  I have mentioned my crashing world with the doctor asking me to speak to some student wannabe psychiatrists.  I agreed and found a roomful waiting.  And only one had an idea, an idea of maybe this is what I was talking about, the Rosicrucian.    

    There may be no description given that matches the experience, but as Paul Tillich said, one knows a something happened, a big something.  It was an authentic experience and in discussion with a Protestant minister, he called it a mountain top experience and wished it had been his.)

    This wall quilt surprised me and I am fond of this artistic side of me.  Knowing how difficult it is to stay with a body intent on laying down,  the jenny genes triumphed.  Probably never again.  I negotiate with my teachers for a bit more time to try another evergreen.  

    January 15, 2022
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
  • All Creatures great and small. . .

     

     

    In reading Bedlamfarm.com about simple changes in their three dogs leading to a concern, it brought to mind this whole pandemic we have been tangling with.  Not only our concern with humanity but with the creatures we live with. 

    I am certain we have had more differences of opinions these past two years than we contend with and no resolution.  The fact that there is question among us concerning what we should do definitely with humans leads to questions about our four legged companions.

    We wonder if we have a cold or Covid or possibly underlying complications from conditions compromising us.  Is our Newfie upset because we’re housing the sister dogs or is it something in the water?  Why all the accidents with bathroom habits when I am home all day? 

    And why all the landscaping upsets and gross eating outdoors?  When our Newfie blew out his hind legs demanding surgery on both, son John toted pool water breakfast and dinner times for a month while Leroy was in the hospital.  Because Leroy wouldn’t drink city water, nor eat the kennel hospital food.  Otherwise of course he is no trouble and he was a free dog.  There is no such thing we learned.

    The opinions diverse.  When something becomes a pandemic, common sense tells us that our companion animals are affected too.  We are not protected from wild creatures  hugging the earth that roam the landscaping and climb the walls to get inside the yards where the good stuffs are.  I watch lizards scoot up the cinder block fences and squirrels still playing havoc with dogs still trying to jump 8 foot walls.

    And the 200 times better noses on the dogs sense the gross droppings from night creatures eating better than they are they think.  I still think it is partly the pool waters.

    Many of the homes nearby have backyard pools.  And it means that whole communities are treated for what ails us.  I luckily talked to the pool man and asked if changes had been made and his immediate question was what are you noticing and troubled with? 

    I said loose bowels habits and upsets in our creatures.  He said we have increased muriatic acid because of the pandemic as well as other measures.  I told him I had been running the hose into the small spa section of the pool where the big guy drinks.  He agreed it wise to do so when he treats the pool. 

    I understand water is the most affected during any crisis that affects the community.  And animal hospitals are first aware of this.   It is written about in most veterinary literature.  I am observant. 

    I have no written credentials but my eyes still work.  I am wont to make connections and since I spot first what needs cleaning up.   Sorry, it is what I do.   I care for what is alive and even sometimes not.

     

    photo by Jessie Hallissey

    January 6, 2022
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
  • Our Sense of Time. . . and other things. . .

     

    Sometimes our actions seem out of context.   It is as if we are dancing to a song not in the musical library.   It is not heard by anyone else,  just us.   It is not foreign to us,  but seems puzzling to everyone watching.   We know that it is still us,  just not the us that  people know. 

    All of life, and human especially is likened to a mosaic.   I wonder sometimes where some of the pieces come from when they are not of this lifetime.  They have a fit though in the larger picture. 

    My boundaries are no more since my inside has no outside. What I am trying to describe is that we are more than we appear to be.  How there is a depth to us always eluding,  never definite,  never static.   That if we had the ability to focus differently and some do, we would see ourselves as a substance far greater than three dimensional.   When we put our arms around beloveds, we are embracing the human family from which we all rise.

    When  I heard the term ‘a sense of snow’ being described as a sense of those who can look at a footprint in the snow and tell what animal walked, how large,  what way the wind was blowing, how far the animal travels, where he had come from and many other things, I understood it.     

    I immediately thought there are those with a sense of snow,   a sense of time,  a sense of destiny.   Those who make connections.  Given a word,  they take it and whip it into the present and use the premise to show how we connect.   This is an area that adds to depth.  Those who can read the handwriting on the wall and know who wrote it because they understand the language.  So we say they have ‘a sense of’, meaning everything one can think of to connect with the subject.   

    And those who can see what the future holds because of the footprint in the snow.   A sense of snow.   It is a wonderful term.  It describes fully those with the ability to hear the cries in crisis and those who see themselves as part of a mosaic, not even consciously realizing where all the pieces come from, but still can identify the pieces as part of the larger picture.   We are a mosaic, within a mosaic, within a mosaic , ad infinitum.  The sense of it all is vast.

    The nonsense question?   Who am I?    The real question is who am I not?

    Sense Of Time

    There is a sense of time
    stretching from here to  
    other worlds whose names
    are not in my vocabulary.
    I am certain of here because
    this is where I am.

    I pushed away the snow
    no longer pristine as first it came.
    I took off my coat; too heavy now
    with the approaching spring.
    Too bad I think that the season of snow
    is now so short.
    Once it embraced the whole of me
    that looked upon its arrival as enticing as
    whipped cream on a piece of pie.

    Its anticipation included holidays
    that swallowed wicked witches,
    soon followed by grateful hearts
     seated about the table,
    swollen with the summer’s harvest.

    I put away the significant things,
    sorting them for another year.
    carefully storing memories
    to be added to a life
    already crowded with them.

    I will remember this holy season
    because of my fill of joy,
    of heart shedding happiness.
    In this world are the ways
    we measure lives in holidays,  
    in holy days, in births and deaths.
    only because of

    our sense of time.

    December 31, 2021
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
  • Are We the Promise Given? . . . ..

    The first week in December found me transported to Emergency with atrial fibrillation.  Since then it has been a trial of finding what medications are  acceptable to this body with not so many adverse reactions.  I have found myself not nice and complaining.  So conserving energy, my work has been my best of what my loyal readers have said to me during these many past seasons of love and memories. 

    I thank all of you who have gifted me with your time in this very difficult segment of our lives which has brought about stress and behaviors to consciousness we thought we had outgrown and learned better.  It does give us hope though that we can restore the goodness we have worked for in ourselves and community. 

    Remorse and regret need not be attached to our names.  We have time to erase them with hands to lift each other up.  This is who we are because we have been taught well and we have worked.  To all of you who are part and inhabitants of this human family, I wish a heart filled with joy this holy season whatever your persuasion. 

    I am restored again to a compassionate frame of mind that shows we know what substantive values we hold that help us enhance our humanity.

    And though we do not share others’ beliefs, we can at least hold the candle for each other as we make our way up.  I bless.  And eagerly accept your blessing.  To bless is a gift given to us when first we draw breath with soul.  Use it frequently.

    do you hear the angels?     . . .                                                      

    Lifetimes lived secreted
    behind the wooly frames of memory.                                                               

    We jog the frames
    of Christmases past. . . .

    Scents of
    pine boughs and holly berries, mince pies and cranberries.

    Sounds of
    apple crisp snow and retorting icicles.
    crackling fires and laughter.

    And the sound of silence,
    as love stretches through all dimensions to encircle Thee and Me.

    As real as tangible,
    as the star beams on the evergreen.
    A promise. . . .
    given and kept.

    Do you hear the angels?

    December 23, 2021
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
  • A Sacred Obligation . . . to think . .


    (For my new readers and for those who need to be reminded, I share again this vignette.  It speaks to how we are connected, one to another as well as to the invisible worlds.  Just as Christians celebrate this holy season, others also celebrate their holy days as Belief demands of them.  We live by Beliefs that signal our inner knowledge to greater reverence.  The unseen world guides and directs us in ways we often choose not to acknowledge.  By not acknowledging, we lose sight of what can be universal progress in peace.  When we accept the differences in ourselves as well as others, we will accept and extend this acceptance with no reservation.  Our intent must always be to broaden our focus so that we live in harmony.   It is our obligation to the sacredness of Life.) 

     

     

     

    Do I have more minutes to finish? There was no time for answers because the little one with a dash was out of sight. In a few minutes he was back and announced, I finish. Having learned to wait while private things were finished, I waited again while he proceeded to his room. 

    I followed him shortly to find him in pajamas and ready to crawl into the high bed. Well, should it be a story to tell or a story to read I asked. I am ready for you to choose.

    Tell me what it is we should do to get you ready for sleep? And I waited. Minutes ticked away while the choice was being made. Patiently, again, what will it be?

    His face took on a faraway look as if searching for a memory. I recognized the look and wondered where he would go for that memory to take shape. I knew it well. It was a look that had been on my face many times with voices telling me to stop dreaming.  I needed to pay attention to what was at hand and not waste so much time dreaming.

    So because of those reprimanding voices, I knew to wait.  He asked if I would sing the one I singed when I singed with other voices. He knowed that song!

    What song is that? I wondered. There was no time for me to sing with other voices that he would have heard. Like this, he said and in his high soprano he sang his  Gllloooo oooooorrrrrrriiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaa and I knew.

    Unbelievably I knew. The music hung on his tongue and in his throat as if he were tasting a delicate sweet.

    When did you ever hear me sing that? I asked. Before I came to you, he said.  Before I came.  I heard you singed and my heart singed with you.

    I knowed I could tell you some time if I just ‘membered it. I promised I would ‘member so I could hear it again and again. I knowed that you would ‘member if I singed it. And you do! he said, you do!

    And I believed him because I gave up choir when he was due to be born. I took this child into my arms and sang the song he so wondrously remembered.

    And when I came to the part he remembered his voice faithfully shadowed mine. And another posit was added to the Memory Bank but who would believe it? Who??????

    Except the many someones who entered their place of belief every time they bent their knees.

    Those are the who. . . .on whom our lives rest. . . . 

    December 18, 2021
    Veronica Hallissey
    Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
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