From an Upper Floor

The Harvest Moon. . . .

The night will bring a harvest moon. I have seen many and they are special. Brilliant and lighting the sky with magic, even though it is Friday the 13^th. I hope there will be dancing with moonbeams and children will laugh as they gather them in baskets like rare gems designed only for their eyes. And they will forever remember from where they come.

Harvest Moon. . .

Within the circumference of the full moon
lies a world of power calculated
to make a man weep. A harvest moon,
brimming with light, great light, prolongs
the day’s labor to make the fields clean,
preparing them for the covering of frost
that will freeze the ground and make way for the snow.

The snow comes in drifts, hiding the stubble
where field mice chew and multiply.
It provides a playground and home
for creatures close to the earth’s crust.

But in the silos, in the barnyards and lofts
is stacked the world’s bounty
to feed those who labored through
the long hot summer to ready the table
for a well earned thanksgiving.

We just suppose the winter will be hard,
written though it has always been for
the old ones to see in the landscape
of the harvest moon. You could not bear
to look at the full moon too hard or too long.

Every farmer soon learns this.
The pull of the moon raises the tides only so far.
But you instinctively knew

that only so far was all the way home.

September 13, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
Worry. . .Still An Advanced Skill. . . .

I Am Sorry, but it takes smarts. . . .

When I hear the words hitting my soft spot with a why should I worry? You do such a good job of it! I want to be mean and snarky and say we would still be crawling on our bellies if we did not have those who gave thought that this mode of travel would be hazardous to the health of upright humans.

But I am certain that upright humans probably were not in a future of non thinkers. Not everyone has the ability to trudge a perilous territory seeking out reasons for problems. It takes immense knowledge to see connections when events appear to have no connection.

Immense for the time when common thought sees no problem at all. And that is the kicker. Common thought. For those who are new to my work, I update this previous essay.

My mother, the Jenny, was an orphan adopted at 8, by owners of a barroom. To not go back to the orphanage, she learned to work hard to survive, emptying spittoons and scrubbing wood floors. She became a worrier also because she was late every day running to parochial school and being punished by the nuns. She escaped by marrying too young and giving birth to 8 children.

All she knew to survive was to anticipate problems. All 8 of us became professional worriers. Four of us still survive, the eldest within 2 years of a hundred and the younger babe at 87. We 4 are still expert at worrying.

When the doctor stood at the door of the ward and mourned the death of the newborns and their mothers, he observed the young doctors moving from one bed to another. He noted also they only wiped detritus from their hands with a dirty rag. Could they be carrying something from one to the other? So he instituted the washing of hands between patients. And the babies stopped dying and so did their mothers.

He connected the dots. He worried long and hard enough and came to conclusions. Worry is an advanced form of thinking. It is impossible for some people because they simply do not know enough to see cause and effect.

Most do not know how to encircle the problem. To have a human being who understands the fuller picture, we have to introduce more levels of experience.

When this planet, our Earth, is called a classroom, it is because of advanced classes of education. One crisis after another is chosen to further our advancement of chosen work. When we complete a class, we move on. It is with ultimate concern we who see the devastation of this natural classroom worry that future generations will not have it.

It is with a sacred blush that we who have loved it to distraction ask that its inhabitants become worriers. Study the behaviors that have led to these elements of crises before our beloved best school be destroyed. Not everyone knows enough to worry. Let us be the smart ones.

Perhaps we who worry can do something because we know only an advanced form of thinking now will save us.

art by Claudia Hallissey

September 9, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
The Earth Gods Know. . .we do not swim alone. .

Journaled December 1992 . . . following. .the Great Nor’easter. . december’92

Nature expounds her presence with all. She ventures to shout her presence. She sends storms and pestilence and calm days and sunny skies to announce her presence. She grants to all the balm of her existence. But she angers and cries . And in frustration teaches what no other thing or method can. She is a great lady but given to little patience. The earth is in dire straits, she says. She hurts and I cannot let her bleed to death. So she rages and fumes and she tires. Will she give up? The earth gods know. The earth gods know. (Hurricane Dorian devastates. . September 2019)

January 2019. . . . in a previous entry I ended with the thought that we are the Intelligence undergirding these universes and we are the power beneath it all. I had written that my studies had taken me to that place where I knew Spirit or the God Force or whatever we call this Intelligence that rumbles life into the universes, but we are part. God Participants.

We are the intelligence or the life force. And this morning I see that if anything is not done to correct the injustices or the inequities that harm and hurt peoples and beings, it is not done because we are doing nothing. What we are doing is participating in the harm and injustices. Doing nothing to stop them because of fear or because we are benefiting from them. So we are the cause and the cure.

That there is an over-riding good that belies the insignificant I. That there is beyond the benign the stretching of invisible good that overshadows all. It is or has to be because we would have long destroyed all life. The sparklers are held by a something I cannot fathom but whose potential is ‘becoming.’ What I can accommodate with utter imprecision is the desire to see that balance is achieved.

That there is something that is so good that no evil can touch its core of perfection. I call it the Great God or possibly should call it the Great Good? As I said in that entry when I stumbled with that undergirding, is that we are part of that Spirit. . . as it was in the beginning, a god participant meaning we were of one name. Genesis chapter 1 verse 26 and god said, let us make man in our image. And I said so long ago, or was it only yesterday in quantum, man is basically good because man has the Divine Within needing to be acknowledged.

As long as we try to explain the hard sweat work of good that people do as in doing what is best for humanity, we will enhance life in all universes. Because as the boy child said to the Lady of Blue Cloths, we are being watch-ed. We are being watch-ed.

(I seem to harangue on this subject of this noteworthy classroom, but we must always keep the larger picture in view, even when what we do seems so small. We do not swim alone.)

September 6, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
A Woman Of Great Wealth. . .

It was a hard move for all of us leaving over a hundred acres of camp property we were living on in Connecticut to move to city life in Michigan. From a lake with mountains and an 1800 farm house to a house with eight feet on either side was what we were looking at. But stepping in I immediately knew it would be home to us.

Our sons bonded tightly there even as they branched out to new friends and activities, The photos show how involved we were. I was talked into helping with the construction of the hockey rink in the backyard. It was started every year from that first time a week before Christmas. That was when we could depend on weather to behave itself. We counted on freezing daily then.

I made rules that I would only spray till 2 a.m.! If I remember correctly, spraying involved 20 minutes every hour for two to three days. That was after there was a few inches of snow to push back to form a rim. And it was a joyful night when the lights were turned on and fun began. The guys were ready, the brothers and the younger’s friends.

Hockey could be played till 9 p.m. on school nights and then they came into the basement to undo skates and then upstairs for cocoa and whatever chief cook baked. This went on till graduation from high school. I was not popular with neighborhood moms with young sons when bombarded with the cry of why can’t we have a hockey rink? Alas, someone needed to stand and spray and not everyone loved winter as we did.

Some not as agile on skates but all loved chasing pucks with sticks. We had our share of broken windows in the house and garage which had to be repaired quickly. They became adept soon to hold the shots low and also at repairing the windows.

The younger, son John, eventually settled in California to teach when I received a call one afternoon from the class he was teaching. He said his class did not believe the hockey rink in his backyard. Would I answer their questions? The children were unbelieving. I explained how we did it and what was done to maintain. You sprayed with a hose they asked? Yes, I said and not after 2 a.m.!

After much time with questions of how cold did it get, how long and how many played and the kinds of things kids wonder about especially the strange mother who would volunteer to do this! They thanked me and made me wonder how many were still unconvinced.

Over a half century later, I consider myself a woman of great wealth in charge of this memory bank.

September 4, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
A Sane Oasis In Troubled Times. . . .

Bucket or also known as Rain Hats. . . .

When I was young , there were people in my circle, friends of parents, or neighbors sitting on their porches whom we thought were wise old people. They were mainly with time on their hands it seemed, obviously going nowhere. What happened to all of them?

I really don’t know, just remember they were there. Their hands were always busy. Old men were whittling wood pieces, turning out to be beautiful birds or art carvings I wished were mine.

Women were sometimes talking but their hands were knitting or crocheting lacy coverings for pillows or antimacassars? That is an old word coming to mind.

It is a covering for the backs of stuffed chairs to prevent soiling from greasy heads. (Britannica Dictionary) Since people nowadays shower each day, we no longer have need of them.

But when they talked, it was always something I did not know but wondered. No one close could enlighten me. But these old people would and I hung with them. They were full of things worth knowing.

No one said they were wasting time or too old to do good. Because they were wise in ways of man and had knowledge about things no one talks of anymore or cares to research.

When talking to a friend today I mentioned these wise ones, saying their minds were always in conference while their hands were busy, as I do in finishing this life but unable to conjure up the energy to do what was normal before. The word worth noting and operative, is unable.

It is a grave mistake we make in not learning a craft or having something to do with one’s hands. Sometimes even thought cannot be summoned. Sometimes and this is important, never without hope and never without knowledge that somewhere will be time for what we have refined.

To keep the larger picture in mind is imperative. Remember, we are in class. History is full of people who first came with an idea ahead of its time; elsewhere, yes, here, no.

But important it has always been to teach something the hands can do. In hard times, emotional, economic, or inopportune, when one cannot accomplish what needs be, the work of the hands create a sane oasis.

So this week, I laid aside the knitting needles, picked up a crochet hook and made some bucket hats.

September 2, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
A Rich Legacy. . . .

Close to where they live, the family gathers to enjoy what is left of the summer. And Emma E. basks in the attention and love her presence assumes. And this should be the right of every child chosen to come to us. Because we choose them.

I have mentioned before that for over half a century I have told our sons thank you for choosing me as your mother. Because I chose you and have loved you long before the world ever was. Because I know I was before I am. Not believe, not hope nor anything else, but know.

I think once we learn this truth, we have to act responsibly. Every teen ager has shouted I did not ask to be born! But we did. For reasons long forgotten. Mainly because we are unaccountably good and wanted to make a difference, because we needed to learn certain things and our choice of parents is insanely correct.

Hard to swallow when in retrospect our childhoods have been unbelievably difficult, when we know we could have learned what we needed to know with less pain. But our painful tract forced memory to surface and provided a history we could access.

We found we could still love, for instance, because at some juncture someone cared enough to teach us how. If not accessible, life still teaches us to learn what love requires.

My Mentor, the Nazarene, said to us all, as the twig is bent. . . And bent we are before arrival and proceed with our intentions, but are different no matter how vehemently parents claim I treat them all the same! Still the bent twig shows us that our history before we are in this place, will continue to shape our adventure.

Emma E. is fortunate with her history and chosen family. She is embraced fiercely with love and with everyone attending her with concern to her development. This I wish for all souls entering a new world; to be wanted and loved into being, to be given the tools necessary to grow and enhance life in all aspects.

Not to be given tools is to handicap the child. To encourage pursuit of reasons why, the earnestness to consider all work sacred, to learn to observe keenly, but most of all to understand that learning is what life demands of us.

With these, the deep satisfaction gives the greatest joy, a rich legacy.

photo by Joe Hallissey III

August 29, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
We Speak. . .

We Speak. . .

We say goodbye with body language.
See. . . we know when
our arms are circling each other
they will not release until our hearts
press our knowledge one to the other.

And we look with watery eyes
that no longer see clear images
because they blur. As long as we touch
we are together in this space.

But in parting we stay connected still.
I have your body form pressed into mine
and the scent of your humanity
I will always seek.

Until one day no longer will we need
to seek out each other. For as breath whispers
beside me, I know it is you.
We will again unite in arms without form
but the embrace will be familiar.

The fit will be forever ours.

art by Claudia Hallissey

August 26, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
The Process Is All. . . .

‘You Are My Best To Be.’. . .

I could hear the words . . ‘too bad all the others could not have been made this way.’ And the response was that this is what creativity was all about. That with each new effort there is improvement. And the creator of the art or article was encouraged with each effort.

Would it eventually be perfect? No, because each thing to be done, whether a seam or incorporation of an idea would have to be perfected. As the creator is not satisfied with his creation and the art is itself the material to be worked with a life of its own and a desire to incorporate whatever is native to it, there could not be perfection.

The last two printed fabrics I worked on, with different stretch, different designs wished for a different approach with ideas of how to use them, so I did. Not with perfection, but adequate, with the total effect pleasing.

With people, individuals, each is a new creation, a new world created. Each becomes a dreamer of his world, a new world to go spinning into space. In one of my poems last lines, ‘you are my best to be.’ I might add, for my world. As the each is the best for his world created.

With what he is, she is, no one could have done it better. Consider what they had as given, the heritages, genetic, cultural, climatological, religious, what they create, no one could do it better. There is no model upon which they create, for each is the world unto himself. And the worlds are as many as there are people.

Live and let live. I cannot criticize anymore. I know the weight of my burdens. I could not carry the weight of yours which I cannot know. But let me help you. I can do that. . . . .

Nature’s New Arrival . . .

I bent and bowed and gathered
all things to me. I sifted and sorted and
with much pain separated the grains of man.
Filing to completion, I noted the encumbrances
saddled to my Earth.

In the midst of morning I chased the night
to an empty place and began anew
to observe the travesties inclined to Nature.

She wound from her spool of variegated yarn
and proposed a multi colored libation.
We sipped together and studied closely
our inventions. We joshed and gurgled
in our cups and found our brains quite addled.

Too much too soon we disposed of
the marvelous concoction and decided. . .
she at her best was better than I, and I,
no more befuddled looked upon you and knew

you are my best to be.

art by Claudia Hallissey

August 22, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
For Me, it is Eternity. . . .

I was sitting and looking at our landscaping and thought I must remember this. This is for eternity for me. It was the end of the day and the sun was setting. I feasted my eyes on my surroundings. And my eyes took in every detail and when they fastened on the next door tree of flowers I thought out loud, Look at what the Great God wanted my eyes to see! And not just a bouquet, but a tree of flowers! Goodness, mercy! A tree of flowers, not just a bouquet.. . . .and the sky was fading but the sun stayed on the tree.

And my next thought was of my Mentor, the Nazarene, and his words of Father, forgive them for they know not what they do. . . And we desecrate and decimate our land and pulp it to a nothing. We obliterate the species in numbers and prevent the trees of flowers from succoring us and the species who hover, supporting us.

I have long argued that this planet should have been kept for graduate students. Those who have earned the right to live on her by doing the footwork, not necessarily those only educated by the elite schools of thought but by those educated by our hearts. But the argument was that Earth’s obstacles would be so difficult that the heavens thought this lush land of beauty would soothe and nurture the soul to health and progress and life in all dimensions would benefit.

But it seems in great numbers the sophisticated had soon developed street smarts and were loathe to give up their toys. So now we work hard to keep what we still have and guard with our lives the beauty of this planet while we live so that our progeny will yet taste of her goodness.

And I repeat the words of my mentor and friend, Father, forgive them for they know not what they do. . they know not. . .

August 19, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.
Apriori. . . (before now). . from where. . . .

Apriori. . . .

Oftentimes what is considered decent, normal behavior we label a success of magnitude. In this world of the aberrant we have lived so long that the decent is a surprise. There are souls among us who have volunteered to help heal this behavior. And have put themselves in jeopardy doing so.

They have known worlds where deeds of good are commonplace, the norm. These are the expected of daily life. These persons are versed to the enth degree with worlds where they are familiar. They are souls born into this world of linear measurement but are already familiar with a thunder rolling quantum god of whom I write.

They are also versed in worlds where decent civilized behavior is mandatory. Here they are met with reckless abandon of institutions which have been centuries in the making and are tossed into what is kindergarten for them. Coming with the intent that growth would be on the agenda, what is now found are the young lost in the maelstrom.

The young expected courage and find spinelessness. They see panic and fright in adults and greed in powerful hands. That icons symbolizing centuries of man’s desire to translate the divine into the material shows that the past is still happening. Not only are the icons being smashed but the humans who built them.

The sibling grandfather, born with the desire to invest in the greater good, was homeschooling his exceptional grandsons and puzzling, asked, why must good behavior be taught while bad seems innate? Are we at home with the bad or is it a result of frustration?

Is it why this Earth is the best classroom in the Universe and we work toward education as a human right for everyone? It is the only way we wipe out bigotry with its stereotypes. Where man notes that please and thank you must be learned, we are surprised that even love for one’s children of one’s body must be learned and demonstrated.

Do you wonder why the latter comes as a surprise and a hesitation to so many? We were told as the twig is bent. . . apriori? From where? It deserves thought. Begin.

August 15, 2019

Veronica Hallissey has been writing since the 1960s, with her poetry published in a variety of small press magazines. Born into a farm family in Lockport, NY, and educated at the University of Buffalo and other midwest institutions, she brings and unusual point-of-view to her poetry, combining strong natural images with a deep spiritual language. She lives in Ramona, CA.